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Taylor Cole

ME

When we are the king of our own hearts these verses give us excuses to have walls up between us and others. But, when Jesus is the king of our hearts, we realize the best way to love ourselves is to be ruled by the King of love, and the safest place for our heart is in the rulership of Jesus.

Me.

In our culture this small word carries so much weight.

" Whats best for me?"

" How does this effect me?"

" What will they think of me?"

" How Does this look on me?"

" What defines me?"

" What is the calling God has for me?"

" If I accomplish this, or pray that, it will be good for me."

" Does anyone know how much people have hurt, or praised me?"

Living in south Texas as a city boy and pastors son, I remember these exact thoughts going through my head. In all honesty most of my life I thought questions like these had to be answered. In my mind I  was the center point of everything, and everything ran through the filter of "->ME<-". I was the one who ran the show, and ultimately called the shots. Peoples influence was welcomed, and Gods was sought out, He was even listened to, but at the end of the day, the main focus was "->ME<-"  

If it didn't seem safe for me, I didn't pursue it.

If it didn't seem healthy for me, I didn't consume it.

If you treated me wrong, or you weren't who I thought made me feel safe, uplifted or wanted, than it became hard for me to love you. You see, I liked the comfort of Gods Kingdom, and the idea of Him being my God. From the outside it seemed like I was a beautiful display of His palace, that He was on the throne of my heart. Since I was the one who everything came back to at the end, the reality was I was on the throne of my heart and I wasn't okay. Being the king on the throne of your heart sounds awesome and fun, but in reality I was the king of my own prison. I sat on the throne of my heart and thought the throne was the safest place to be. You know, the place of power, the place that I get to call the shots. The reality however, was that as long as I was on the throne of my heart, Jesus wasn't, and that my friends, is the most dangerous place to be. Pride will always lead to a downfall, and will keep you bound, unable to receive love. My struggles with sin, and my hurt in my relationships, wasn't because Jesus didn't give me freedom, it was because I was to proud to receive it. How often does a King take orders from their servants? Or seek council from a citizen?  As long as I was "King" I told Jesus what to do, how I needed to be treated, and  what kind of freedom I needed. Obviously its impossible to rule over Jesus, but that is a downfall of pride, it causes you to see things , and believe things that cannot be so. At a church camp in 2010, when I was 17,  I encountered the amazing person of Jesus. I let Jesus be my King, and sit on the throne of my heart knowing this was my hearts purpose. I began to experience joy, love and passion like never before. I was finally home, knowing I was safe in His rulership. It would be awesome to tell you that I have never sat on that throne since then, but that would be a lie. Jesus has been so patient, kind, and gentle with me. He has reminded me when I have taken the throne, and gently lifted me off. He has shown ->ME<- how He sees things, Whats important to Him, and What is safe to Him. He has shown

->ME<- that people are easy to love, when I simply live to love. He has shown ->Me<- that He never intended to cast me out of the throne room of my heart once He took the throne, but rather He has always wanted me to sit on His lap, and be the closest I can to His heart. Jesus as King means my thoughts, wants, desires, judgments, and needs are not only determined by Him, and filtered through Him but are met by ->HIM<-.

"Love your Neighbor as yourself" Mark 12:31.

"Above all else guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." Proverbs 4:23

When we are the king of our own hearts these verses give us excuses to have walls up between us and others. But, when Jesus is the king of our hearts, we realize the best way to love ourselves is to be ruled by the King of love, and the safest place for our heart is in the rulership of Jesus.

If you are like ->ME<- and you have taken the throne of your heart, simply know this: Jesus has His big safe arms open to you to gently let you down, and place you on His lap. Only Jesus is fit and qualified to be King of all, including your heart.

Don't let pride deceive you into believing you can rule your own palace, because I promise you this, that kingdom will always fall. Jesus is my king, and I love ->"ME<- .